Boy, oh boy am I being shown textbook definitions of pregnancy. I was trying to get dressed earlier and got so upset because EVERYTHING feels too tight. Don't get me wrong, I am not dumb enough to be like "I'm showing!" I am saying, however, that being on progesterone supplements twice a day has made me so puffy it's like almost comical. I feel massive. Rob totally melted my heart when he brought his "Everything Father To Be Book" and read me an excerpt from it stating that women in the first trimester will often feel fat and ugly because our bodies are changing and there is no baby bump to show for it yet- just full on weight shifting and puffiness. :) It was so sweet of him.
Today was full of nausea and fatigue. It is so amazing to feel it. I honestly take comfort in feeling awful. I am not feeling so hot now as I type! Just had to tell a tale of waterworks!
Rob went in the gas station to get snacks (I think he gets more cravings than I do.. Hahaha, freakin' moon pies) and as he was in there "I Hope You Dance" was on the radio. I was listening to the lyrics and I think I finally let myself feel happy and so much love for this baby. I think I feel like it's safe now. I started picturing that little heartbeat and just broke down in tears and bawled like a baby. Straight up happy, joyous tears. Not an ounce of sadness. I imagined his/her eyes, his/her heart already beating away, and his/her triumphs and tribulations that I want to be there for. I just can't believe how much I already love this little monster. :)
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